i read lot of article to find way to control myself, without letting my anger control myself, seem to be it quite hard to do so... whenever i feel unsatisfying, my anger will just raise up, my face shown unhappy and hostile toward those people who i aim for.
so, since i so hard to control myself
i wondering ... just wondering, i dun look at my anger first
i should look at my own point of view, my sentimental feeling
YES, i got it
i over sense too much, i over react too much to people word and acting
that the main reason lead me into this situation.
finding myself wrong doing is something hard to detect, because personally, no one will think us (our self) do wrong (expect those thing that shown clear) , we give lot of excuse and reason to proof us (our self) was not part of the wrong ,it was other people problem
yet i found nothing wrong with myself
BUT
i careful inspect what i have done just now, while i remember hows people and friends shown their attitude and act toward you, eventually you know there something not right in between
the case :
my tea was late arrive since i order, it was actually been forgotten, beside that too much customer at the same time and those waiter unable to handle at all, since i was already given the order and i wait 10 min not seeing my tea arrived, so i call up the waiter but no one response? when i call for few more time, my patients getting hot, eventually, my anger come up.
the very first thing i will do is shout to those waiter, and then i give them my very unhappy look, i reply my word with anger but not with bad words. the fun thing is, as other people who insult me ( or because i take it too heavy) i will not look at he/she or talk with he/she until my mood is calm down!
so..beside i got emotional over react, i also a person without much patients...
not only that occur every time, but will give people stressful feeling
that why i look myself pathetic , bad temper monster with an over react emotion.
that me!
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